Feeling Blue

How i wish i can get back to the place where it began 4 years ago..., no,.. not 4 years ago....
rather, 3 years ago is enough...

How i wish i can hang out lots more with my friends back then.... not just being a mom's boy... without any will to go out from the safe feeling that an old house gave....

wish i could live my life to the fullest back then...
wish i could make someting happened, instead of waiting for it to happen....
i hate that kind of life now..... like i was not in control of my life.....
i wish i played more sports, not just not being able to play, and then just sat back in the corner, crying at myself....
My world is small back then.... as small as that i believed my big family is the only i need for my whole life.....
i hope that my brother don't get the same condition as i had...

Right now, I'm hating myself back then........

time's left... past' gone, present on the go, future awaits

i don't even share my feelings to my mom, or dad....
more over to my bros, friends, or anything .....
kept them to myself, just to be forgotten....
Gotta admit... I'm a naive person back then.....
believe in nobody.... just me and myself......


maybe i've changed... abit...
Until now, i shared my feelings to only a girl.... was so close to me that now i feel that she is soo far way.....

Thank God for letting me to met her, to learn from her, to make me realize myself....

i'm going to grab the best part of my lifetime...
my youth, my college life.... not gonna regret it the way i regretted my high school life...
one lifetime regret is enough for me.....

When it comes to time, what's done can't be undone.....




4.03...
finished bloggin... goin to sleep now..
gotta wake up at 7. max 8 ..
whoa.....