Time for Myself

slept from 10pm to 3am, and i just can't find any reason to go to sleep anymore....and i thought i will give the time to myself....
I know, I've been absent in blogging for almost 2 months.... Actually, i got times when i feel like writing, but it's just that the time is not right... moreover, it's like i wanted to do it, but i can't command my mind into action,... strange feeling yoo,.... just the same with studying, i can feel times when i'm in need of studying, but I just can't lead myself to do that,...
maybe somekind of lack of willpower? willdo...

This whole week, from Monday to Friday, is our school's Overseas Student Cultural Exhibition.....
And I think I had whole lot of a good time with it... complemented with a good night sleep,... a great week!

There's this Malaysian girl that i've met b4, kinda attracted by her appearance, the way she dressed, the way she acted around her friends.... enough to draw my attention to her....
until Wednesday it was all ok, but later, i can't stop my eyes looking for her everytime i'm in the room........
ugh... i think i just have a crush on her........................................................ damn!!
it's hard being a Sag...;p

anyway, the week's over,.. and i hope i can slowly let her away, or wondrin whether time will work it's way around....

in just 2 weeks from now, I'll be facing my mid-term test.... sadly, i think won't be going to Pekan Olahraga Perpita this year, which is exactly the Saturday and Sunday of the week before the exam week...... bad bad bad.....

Well, good luck with the exam... in which i'll need it a LOT when It comes to my academic grade....combining it with studying, ( i don't write "a lot" do I?) Hope I'll pass this Sem without any failed subject... (oh yeah, I know it's hard, Really HARD!)

You know what I hate and love from this life?
The way that i'm in control of my life, but something else also controlling the way i control my life... some of you may think that i'm thinking too hard, or something like that,... maybe you guys r right...
obsessed with Life itself....

academic achievement.... i'm lacking it,... with only 2 weeks, let's hope for the worst....
that's why i hate myself.... but then i'll love myself if it comes up good....

I said that i need to learn, but i never learn....

is it my mind,.. that is playing with me?

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