Just a person tryin to live his life to the fullest
Monday, December 20, 2004
This weekend on hsincu
my last trip there was last year's winter holiday...
i'm writing this because I want to keep my thought, and take lessons from my trip this time...
Friday night, 17 Dec 2004
me and acong got off to taicung train station at around 10.45, but when we got there, there is already no train, nor buses going to hsincu....asked here and there, at 1st we decided to return home, but when we tried to use our last chance, we got an answer that a bus is going to hsincu, but it will only drop us at hsincu's intertown's highway... with the price of 220!.. yeah, kinda expensive huh...but what the heck, and so we gone....
arrived there at almost 2 am in the morning...(yeah, we waited for an exchange bus for more than half hour at chauma's bus station)....got there, acong made a call, then we waited for them to bring us to the meeting place... after waited for about 10 minutes, I got a strange feeling telling me that they are coming, and then, looking at the other side of the road, i saw two motorcycle, my feeling suddenly told me that it's them, one must be tilong, and with a guy....I laughed at myself,.. "No way?!, is it really it?" and when they made it i just shocked, and laughed all the way....
saturday morning, KTV at cashbox...
tilong got her room key lost....
sleep at 6 am, and woke up at 12... for me, i didn't get to really conscious for half of the day....
1 thing learned:
- when i'm driving motorcycle following another, I can get so concentrated and that my eyes only looked at the red lamp behind the motorcycle.....it's like my mind is programmed just to follow what the one infront do, turning when he turned, braking when he braked....
I'm trying to reduce that happening by now, and i think i'm getting better and better....
and i think that's why i can hardly remember the road.....
saturday night, watching movie... National treasure...
nice movie, I think the theme is taken from the da vinci code.... because it also talked about the free mason secret society and the knight templar, and about treasure for the world...( get the point?)
sat night, when goin back to ciao ta's dorm, i saw a dead pigeon on the road, then, a dead rat,...
and then, my motorcycle goes out....
2nd lesson learned:
- when you don't know which level of unleaded gas the motorcycle use, always opt for the higher one....
sunday morning, to evening, trip to beipu,
nice place, too bad that the lion head mountain was too steep for our motorcycle to get there...
nice company by shindy's younger sister....
^^"
nite all - 01.51
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Just found out
Yes, my blog has been read by more and more people,...
but something's changed....
usually, when writing my blog, I only considered a little for my readers....
most of the times, never even thought about them.....
but lately,...
I can't even write my blog the same way I used to be.....
Started a new post, but can't finish it.....
Maybe because I started it as an obligation to update my blog for my reader....
not for my self-fulfillment anymore.....
Kinda hate it.....
But I'm changing it....
been thinking about it for days....
and I thought... the reader wants to read what's in my heart and head....
It's not for them, The main reason I wrote those posts are for myself.
My blog is 4 myself to read, and for other's to find enlightment in reading my life, in my thought that is poured in here.....
^^y....
I'll write when I feel like writing....
I'll post when I feel like posting...
Ps: for reader,.. Thank You for the comments... Directly or Indirectly, Positive or Negative...
It's A Pleasure to Found Out that there are people who actually read your thoughts, and commented it....
Real Life AI??
Just a Complex yet Simple Yes No Program.....
can simulate a real life Artificial Intelligence....
Dunno what made me said that,
maybe bcos of all those emotions, all those feelings I've through....
Felt something,.. but don't know what I feel....
know it's there, but don't know what it is....
and then deduct it to make a hypothesis......
XD, 亂想
Study laar
Friday, November 26, 2004
Becoming 20
kinda foggy,
made me feel like i'm somewhere else,...
those sunrays above the tree,
blurred by the fog...
those fresh air surround me....
someplace that doesn't belong in this world...
but in my heart.....
Today is my BirthDay
Today is Friday
Today i'm gonna Travel
Today is a FullMoon Night
Ah,.... life,.. at it's best
26 Nov 2004
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Lately
When taking shower, when riding a bicycle, even when the teacher's talking!
It's like my mind can just wander off to anywhere he wanted to go, anytime...
problem2 kecil sehari2 yang biasanya luput dari pengamatan dan seperti menghilang dari dunia...
Percaya ga sih sarapan itu bisa menaikkan berat badan?
Berat badan gua ga pernah naek sejak datang dari Indo. Tapi gara2 kerjaan jadi tukang sampah semenjak mulainya semester3 yang mengharuskan gua untuk bisa bangun pagi....( jam 8 tiap pagi...T.T) Jadinya terbiasa deh ama sarapan pagi...Dan akhir2 ini sepertinya tubuh gua jadi tambah oke aja...XD(ato mungkin cuman gua yang merasa..... hahaha).
Kenapa gua sering merasa kalo sebagian anak kelas yang dicap sbg anak rajin bakalan jadi guru di masa depan??
Dari postur tubuh yang kurus, kecil, dan berkacamata bulat, (hampir sama deh ama guru di jurusan gua!) sampe sifat2 khas seperti terlalu polos(bisa ga senang kalo loe minjem jawaban latihan ), ga mempersoalkan penampilan(bisa pake baju2 "lama" plus bau badan yang "menyengat" ke kelas)..................hahahaha.... we'll leave those things to the future.
=p..... auk ah,... mending balek baca buku deh...
sebenarnya masi banyak hal2 laen yang cukup kreatif untuk dipikirkan.. cuman kebentur ama satu masalah terbesar....LUPA......=.=.....
^^ session ended at 02.28
Sunday, October 31, 2004
The last day of October 2004
......................................................................................................
Study.........................................
Took 24 credits this semester, got only 36 credits from last year.
Before the start of this semester, Listened to how my senior told me how they was in their second year. I've been preparing myself for all the difficulties that I know i will face.
And it is.....
from most to least
Microelectronics, Advanced Engineering Math, Electromagnetics, Electronic Circuits, Data Structure, Microprocessor.
I'm working my best to save myself, but i don't think i'll make it all out.
if someof them gonna be sacrificed, i think it's the first two. The most difficult one. I don't even understand even when i've read it.(well, maybe bcos i only read it once or twice).
Money..........................
Started this semester with about 25000nt in bank. began working as a "garbage man" since September 2004 with an income of 3000nt permonth. With the additional 3300nt(gov suport money), the total income per month is around 6000nt. But my expenses permonth is 6000-8000nt. So i've been starting to save more money, so that i can buy a ticket back to Indo when this semester is over.
Love.............................
Only alil bit of it left now, to keep the memory of her, and all the times we passed 2gether.
The exitement of starting the new me also has gone dry, left behind only a few of the residue, the residue that has given me hope, to keep moving on, even in much slower pace now...
met two girls, both are sisters. kinda like to flirt with them, bcos of their reaction when i make jokes out of them. I think that the younger has begin to start thinking that i did all those things to get close to her, her eyesight makes me think so (maybe i'm exxagerrating things). Well, I dont think that she'll make the move, neither will i. Bcos, i'm not into that right now, bsides, she's just an 'average' girl.(girl reader dont get mad at me ok?!, I have my own appetite *lolz*)
that's about it,
session ended at 03.40
Friday, October 22, 2004
What a waste of Time!!!!
pathetic! should've done something more for my life!
What the heck am I thinking!
sitting there like waiting for sumthing to happen,
Gotta try not to let these kinda things happen again!
time's too precious to be left over just like that!
>.<
I need a light to lead my dark path.....
just hope i'm good enough to cross it.....
Thursday, October 14, 2004
One kind of loneliness
the time has come.....
Loneliness huh?
sitting in front of a computer with messenger online,... but not knowing what to do,.....
been through it lotsa times...
i guess it's just that, what's she's trying to avoid,...all those times...
and I think i just got lucky to be the one to be talked to......
so I was only exxagerating things........ hahaha...
made a fool out of myself..........
journey travelled, time passed, lesson learned, no regrets... .
Thank God I met you.
終於, 我寮解......
i understand it now... or I think I do...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Nice One......Love it
You never know who these people may be;.... your roommate,..... your neighbor,....professor,..... long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who,when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they may seem rather horrible,....painful and unfair,... but in reflection you will realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, your strength, your will power of heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments, or true greatness and sheer stupidity;... all occur to test the limits of the soul.
Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life and helped create successes and downfalls you experienced, are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experience can be learned from... Those lessons are the hardestand probably the most important ones!
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart... forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart, and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.
I wish you all the best in your endeavors as well as struggles in life.Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle!
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Copied from Astrology.com
Right now you have two equally seductive choices: first, the cozy comforts of your own home, complete with cushy sofa and cozy lighting. On the other hand, there is the open road, which, though it may contain countless perils, could alter your life for the better. Which should you take? If you stay too close to home where everything is safe and sound, you will be happy, but you'll always wonder. If you take the new path, new growth will result. But you have to let go first.
Daily Extended Forecast for September 29, 2004
When you want love, love will find you. If your need to create is in overdrive, anything you touch will turn into an art project. Time is your friend once you learn to give it exactly the importance it deserves -- no more, no less. The stars want you to have fun. And if you're not already having fun, expect festive interference from unlikely sources. For instance, imagine your door flying open as a pack of giggling children pour into your room. The innocent and naive turn out to be your best teachers. Those who work in education are probably quite familiar with this miracle already.
All of my thoughts last night was poured into these two....
Feeling Blue
rather, 3 years ago is enough...
How i wish i can hang out lots more with my friends back then.... not just being a mom's boy... without any will to go out from the safe feeling that an old house gave....
wish i could live my life to the fullest back then...
wish i could make someting happened, instead of waiting for it to happen....
i hate that kind of life now..... like i was not in control of my life.....
i wish i played more sports, not just not being able to play, and then just sat back in the corner, crying at myself....
My world is small back then.... as small as that i believed my big family is the only i need for my whole life.....
i hope that my brother don't get the same condition as i had...
Right now, I'm hating myself back then........
time's left... past' gone, present on the go, future awaits
i don't even share my feelings to my mom, or dad....
more over to my bros, friends, or anything .....
kept them to myself, just to be forgotten....
Gotta admit... I'm a naive person back then.....
believe in nobody.... just me and myself......
maybe i've changed... abit...
Until now, i shared my feelings to only a girl.... was so close to me that now i feel that she is soo far way.....
Thank God for letting me to met her, to learn from her, to make me realize myself....
i'm going to grab the best part of my lifetime...
my youth, my college life.... not gonna regret it the way i regretted my high school life...
one lifetime regret is enough for me.....
When it comes to time, what's done can't be undone.....
4.03...
finished bloggin... goin to sleep now..
gotta wake up at 7. max 8 ..
whoa.....
Monday, September 27, 2004
Love is all around
That cloud,.. that special cloud,.... the only cloud that flew so low. From my viewpoint, the cloud was moving from the right down corner towards the moon in the center. Somehow, i felt that something special is going to happen....
And so it did,....
That cloud, as clever as it could be, was making a shape of the heart, acting as the circumference, with the heart-shaped hole inside...the V side facing 3 o'clock. At this time, the moon is right in the edge of the heart....
The second heart,... was a full heart, aligned perfectly with our view, with the moon near the center of the heart....
The third heart,... was also a full heart, aligned perfectly,.. but this time an arrow pierced into it,..the head pointed at 3 o'clock.....
And then, the shape of the Genie in Alladin's movie..... with the moon just above it's head,...
somehow,.. it silently told me that tonight is special.....
The show was closed with the genie, placing it's right hand on it's chest,.. slowly diappeared in front of my eyes......
26.09.04. 10.30 - 10.45
It's comforting to know that something special, is keeping an eye on me.....
and makin all those things happens.... and by the same time,... giving a love message to my friends that is in love....
Thank You, Whatever you are......
Friday, September 17, 2004
my 16th sept
Thursday, September 16, 2004
2Dae
The feeling of a perfect day....
Greeted by Nature...
Cloudy sky....
Rain dropping,.....
the green leaves of those trees in front of my room window, with drops of water clinging at the very side.
The temperature that can make every single person in this world don't wanna leave the comfort of his/her bed...
But,.. a job is a job...
Left my room,..
Outside was even better,...
Right hand gripping an umbrella,...
Left hand holding my bike,...
Legs started to move,..
Wheels rolling,..
Heading for a building inside my University...
Strode along that same road everytime,...
but,... this morning, something was different....
I feel like I was,...
Greeted by Nature...
Cloudy sky....
Rain dropping,.....
Right hand gripping an umbrella,...
Left hand holding my bike,...
Legs pedalling,..
Wheels rolling,..
Those winds,...touched my face as to comfort me...
Those raindrops,.. tipped my left hand as to seduce me...
Those trees,..silently standing beside the road as their green leaves waving at me...
Even silently,.. I can hear the echoes of nature....
so pure....
at that very moment,...
I.............
am living in paradise......
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Thx Ant'z
The greatest Joy..........................................Giving
The greatest loss..........................................Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work...........................Helping others
The ugliest personality trait.......................Selfishness
The most endangered species....................Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource....................Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm"...................Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome............Fear
The most effective sleeping pill..................Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease..............Excuses
The most powerful force in life...................Love
The most dangerous pariah.........................A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer.......The brain
The worst thing to be without.....................Hope
The deadliest weapon...................................The tongue
The two most power-filled words..............."I Can"
The greatest asset........................................Faith
The most worthless emotion......................Self-pity
The most beautiful attire............................SMILE!
The most prized possession........................Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication...Prayer
The most contagious spirit.........................Enthusiasm
First Day of the Week
The Day started as usual.... headphone hanging on my head all night,.. woke up bcos duty called... then got back to my room,.. lying around for half an hour.. can't sleep oledi...Got up, sat infront of my "lovely" comp, swept some mine, and then had lunch alone....
The day officially started when Dian mess me telling that one of the XueMei is coming this afternoon,.. taking bus from Jinan at 12.10...so approximately she and her older sister will be in Taichung at 2.30. Told others about their arrival, I was assigned to pick them up at the train station,... Planned to take a bath at 2, and then wait for a bus at 12.15. The plan was beautifully altered when Stella called me (when you read this, don't feel sorry, becoz I myself felt grateful that you called, Life is like a box of chocolate - Forrest Gump) telling me how things had gone so awful(I can feel that she needed me by her side right now)...Hung up the phone, made some "brownies", realized it was already 2.15... and I wont be able to make it on time if i take a bath. but when I had that "urge", I know I'll need a bath, so I took a bath, changed with clean clothing, and go waited for a bus..by that time, it was already 2.30.. waited the bus for more than 20 mins...(by that time, I said to myself, if things had to go like this, well then it gotta happen for a reason, and the reason gotta be good!) Picked them up at 3.10, brought them to women's dorm. by then, it was 3.30. Finished my duty, I know it's time for myself to do what I need to do to fulfill my destiny...So I made up my mind, took a bus back to the train station, bought a ticket for a train at 16.01, delayed 6 mins to 16.07. Boarded the train, car 7 seat 19. Sat beside an old man, approximately 70-80 of age... Saw him tryin to call his relatives by using a 5-years-ago handphone, It couldn't connect,.. so I asked him whether he needed some help with the cellphone. Me too, tried to call with his phone without any result, no ringing tone. 053799019. so I offered to use my cell to call. 16.15, first attempt, the ringing tone is there, but noone was there to picked up the phone. 2nd attempt, 16.30 came up with the same result, nobody was there. Lucky for him that on my 3rd attempt at 16.45 I heard a woman's sound. so I handed him my phone, he talked to her for a few seconds, telling her that he's coming and then hung up. When he handed back my phone, He thanked me by lightly patting my right wrist 3 times. (I'm just a person who is trying to live his life to the fullest, and by the same time, helping other's). Sat for a while, my mind began wondering. I said to myself: "I am already on this train, and there is only one road left to be taken. I don't want to regret not doing the thing that I won't regret doing, whatever gonna happen, it will be worthy,.. always worthy......"
Arrived at CiaYi train station at 17.01, bought a 17.30 bus ticket to CCU (gotta thank A Star for that SMS). Called Stella to tell her that I'm oledi at CiaYi..Listened to her respond of the surprise (Planned to give her a surprise by calling her when I arrived infront of her dorm, but I can't help myself bcos of the fear that she may not gonna be around if I do exactly what i've planned).
It's like all of this have been planned...flawlessly...
7-9-04 .....unforgettable.....
I wish the time can be paused when we need it to stop for a while...to fly,.. away,... far from reality.......
And yes, I believe in soulmates.....
(
Friday, September 03, 2004
Not so bad laaaa, not so good either *.^
Hari ini.... hari Kamis ,(loh,.. bukannya uda Jum'at pagi??) ( ya ngga donk!, kan hari ini lom dinyatakan selesai, ya ngga?!)
jam 7.22 pagi dibangunin Wenhua, ringkasan obrolannya kira2 begini( tentunya dalam bahasa sehari-hari kita)
Hua: Uei, loe uda siap lom??
Me: Ha? apa? (suara gua yang baru dibangunin)
Hua: Looh... Loe mau pigi gaaa?
Me: *baru tringat* Mao maooo.....
Hua: Ya udah,.. cepetan abis mandi langsung jalan kluar ke gerbang..
Me: OK deh...
singkat cerita,... kita sudah sampe di Junfusun Fancy World pada pukul 10.30 tanpa halangan yang berarti,...walaopun itu berarti melewatkan satu hari kerja yang baru dimulai satu hari sebelumnya.....
Coaster pertama yang dinaiki namanya G5DivingMachine. Sesuai namanya, coaster yang satu ini menarik karena jalurnya yang berbentuk huruf "U" betul sodara2.. huruf U! Perasaan ketika turun sampai saat ini masi teringat jelas,...jantung yang berdebar ketika coaster blom mencapai posisi puncak,..The feeling of excitement ketika coaster berhenti sekitar 5 detik pas ditepi "jurang",.. en the feeling of freedom,.. perasaan yang tidak merasakan apa2 ketika coaster itu bagaikan "jatuh" dan "terbang" kembali. All u can do was just letting yourself to flow with the ride...
After that,..makan siang di ComicLand,.. tempatnya cukup keren,.. karena dindingnya dihiasi gambar2 dari komik Jepang yang terkenal,.. dari Naruto, sampe Doraemon...
Basically ga semua ride yang ada disana dinaiki dengan alasan yang cukup simpel.. ga menyukai perasaan mual yang ditimbulkan setelah menaiki ride yang kerjanya hanya berputar pada porosnya....
Another coaster yang cukup seru dinamakan FloorlessCoaster. Coaster yang satu ini merupakan coaster panjang (hampir sama seperti di game RollerCoasterTycoon) yang dilengkapi dengan loop loop yang cukup menarik,. 2 loop berbentuk O dan 2 loop 360.
Wahana terakhir yang dinaiki berupa Bianglala(kata si Robert :Baling-Baling)(*>\sebuah roda sepeda super besar yang pada setiap ujung luar jari2nya digantung sebuah kotak hadiah yang dinaiki oleh manusia2 yang ingin menikmati suasana ketinggian bagakan terbang dengan helikopter/<*) super besar yang merupakan simbol dari JunfusunFancyWorld...
Overall,... The day was more than just plain good...
But not enough to make it a perfect day....
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
a boring life of mine
felem ini ceritanya tentang seorang cewe yang suka banget ama hip-hop dance... trus tryin to get a career with it,... a lil bit of love,.. and a lot of dream accomplishment,.. Lagu trakhirnya juga bagus banget.. I believe....
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Happy Valentine Day!
I am staying, aint I?
Our relationship is far too precious to be sacrificed for things like this....
The decision chosen is highly appreciated...
- -
and Pleeaassseee!
Don't feel guilty to mess with my already messy life, It's the spice of life...
Don't say that I want it,..bcos Love, is not about a single person,..it's about couple....I can feel that we both want it,.. but you and i are just not sure whether the feeling is fake or real....bcos we can only talk everyday, not be able to see each other, not be able to do things together like what we've done in this lovely summer holiday....
Maybe I am fantasizing, maybe what I feel is wrong, maybe I think too much....
But also, maybe it is right...
ps to the star..
Thanks for making today the best day of my life,
Thanks for that one hour in the bus,....
I can feel that the flower is blooming.................................
If you know that I am right, please do not lie to yourself....
If I am mistaken,... please forgive me for writing what i feel,...
because maybe I've fly too high,...too far from reality...
whatever it is,....as a lover, as a soulmate, or as a 學弟
Friendship always act as the basic foundation....
Eien no Tomodachi
Thursday, August 19, 2004
Maybe what written in that piece of paper is true.....
惹禍皆閒口舌 招災多為壞心腸
>.< i know it's just a piece of paper taken randomly at a big temple after we pray.........
Jes as simple as that.....
Don't even know what's that suppose to mean exactly! but it keeps botherin me..... and those hurts jes keep coming......
a game of destiny.... and choice.... i am playing it, and be played by it....