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The last day of October 2004
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Study.........................................

Took 24 credits this semester, got only 36 credits from last year.

Before the start of this semester, Listened to how my senior told me how they was in their second year. I've been preparing myself for all the difficulties that I know i will face.
And it is.....
from most to least
Microelectronics, Advanced Engineering Math, Electromagnetics, Electronic Circuits, Data Structure, Microprocessor.
I'm working my best to save myself, but i don't think i'll make it all out.
if someof them gonna be sacrificed, i think it's the first two. The most difficult one. I don't even understand even when i've read it.(well, maybe bcos i only read it once or twice).

Money..........................

Started this semester with about 25000nt in bank. began working as a "garbage man" since September 2004 with an income of 3000nt permonth. With the additional 3300nt(gov suport money), the total income per month is around 6000nt. But my expenses permonth is 6000-8000nt. So i've been starting to save more money, so that i can buy a ticket back to Indo when this semester is over.

Love.............................

Only alil bit of it left now, to keep the memory of her, and all the times we passed 2gether.
The exitement of starting the new me also has gone dry, left behind only a few of the residue, the residue that has given me hope, to keep moving on, even in much slower pace now...
met two girls, both are sisters. kinda like to flirt with them, bcos of their reaction when i make jokes out of them. I think that the younger has begin to start thinking that i did all those things to get close to her, her eyesight makes me think so (maybe i'm exxagerrating things). Well, I dont think that she'll make the move, neither will i. Bcos, i'm not into that right now, bsides, she's just an 'average' girl.(girl reader dont get mad at me ok?!, I have my own appetite *lolz*)
that's about it,
session ended at 03.40

What a waste of Time!!!!

Sitting in front of my computer, without knowing what to do!
pathetic! should've done something more for my life!
What the heck am I thinking!
sitting there like waiting for sumthing to happen,
Gotta try not to let these kinda things happen again!
time's too precious to be left over just like that!
>.<
I need a light to lead my dark path.....
just hope i'm good enough to cross it.....

One kind of loneliness

13th oct ...

the time has come.....


Loneliness huh?
sitting in front of a computer with messenger online,... but not knowing what to do,.....
been through it lotsa times...
i guess it's just that, what's she's trying to avoid,...all those times...
and I think i just got lucky to be the one to be talked to......


so I was only exxagerating things........ hahaha...
made a fool out of myself..........

journey travelled, time passed, lesson learned, no regrets... .
Thank God I met you.


終於, 我寮解......
i understand it now... or I think I do...

Nice One......Love it

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be;.... your roommate,..... your neighbor,....professor,..... long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who,when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they may seem rather horrible,....painful and unfair,... but in reflection you will realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, your strength, your will power of heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments, or true greatness and sheer stupidity;... all occur to test the limits of the soul.
Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life and helped create successes and downfalls you experienced, are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experience can be learned from... Those lessons are the hardestand probably the most important ones!
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart... forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart, and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

I wish you all the best in your endeavors as well as struggles in life.Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle!